Do you ever reminisce to the time where things were
terribly wrong in which it gave you such a hard time in life? And now you are
still here alive with more blessings than you ever need. I bet mostly all of us
have that moment in our lives. But do you also wonder why things go wrong? Even
if it’s unintentionally, do you still wonder the true meaning behind your
obstacles? We all go through some hardships in our lives in order for us to
learn the true meaning of life. We learn how to live it, love it and mostly
enjoy it.
Living my childhood life to the fullest and then growing
up as a teenager was one of the hardest things that I had to go through. I
spent most of my childhood life with my grandparents who treated me like a
princess. Even though I often got bullied in school, I wasn’t always upset
because I always had my grandparents by my side. They always knew what I wanted
and needed and they always made sure to fill my life with happiness. Eventually,
my life with them had to come to an end. As I grew older, my grandparents grew
older as well. They weren’t able to provide me enough care and support since
they had a lot of stress going on. With this thought, my parents decided to bring
me back to Saipan. Leaving my grandparents and continuing my life with my
parents was exciting at first. But I started to learn and understand the value
of them as I got separated from them. Things were really rough from then.
As I continued my life in Saipan, not everything went
well. I wasn’t used to the environment where my parents were strict. There will
be times when I would have no one to talk to. Just by holding in most of the
emotions was just as difficult as loosing someone important in life. My heart
always felt like it was compressed into something that is about to destroy. I
cried every night wanting to have my grandparents by my side, comforting me
with all the love and care they used to give. Days went by and I started to understand
why things were difficult. I was able to pull through the obstacles and learn
the true meaning of life. I learned how to solve issues on my own with God’s
help. And with my parent’s guidance, I was able to meet new people who accepted
me with care and love. Just by reading this, maybe it doesn’t sound as
depressing as it was back then. But going through it and still having the
feeling in me always made me stop for a minute to thank God for everything he
has done for me. Everything was hard for me, but then I learned something…
God sometimes takes us into the troubled waters not to
drown us but to cleanse us. During my journey through the troubled waters,
I was able to cleanse my mind from all the sorrows and devilish thoughts. My
parents weren’t my enemies, but they are my protectors, my guidance, my shield
and mostly my life. Now, right now at this very moment, I thank God for all
the things he has given me because right now, I’m showered with God’s blessings
all over my life. He never left me empty. He replaced everything I lost and
made me find something greater in life. I thank him today, tomorrow and every day.
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